Saturday, February 14, 2015

Changes

I feel inspired, energetic, hungry, thoughtful, confused, ravenous, open-minded. So many things. Everyone cries and comes together upon word of a dog being beaten, terrorized, skinned left for dead... Well that happens to the cows, pigs and chickens in the U.S. everyday. Everyday you demand that cheeseburger, milkshake, scrambled egg, an animal was raised with no love, no health benefits, in some cases no sunshine and they are killed in fear. And we are eating that fear. Shots to the head, death by hanging by a leg, diseases, all allowable by our government. The government does not protect animals bred for food. Ever wonder how the dairy cows can pump out so much milk? They are artificially insemenated, constantly. Thats tons of hormones, not to mention the baby cow taken away for milk or veal. They are constantly pregnant, constantly nursing so you, the adult human can drink its blood and puss laden milk. We don't need milk after being weaned from our mothers. Angry. On the road to becoming Vegan. Check out the documentary, Vegucated, among others to see what I mean.

Friday, February 6, 2015

Day 4

Feeling inspired to do new things with my photography. Wellbutrin is going well, was drowsy the first two days. Yesterday was fine and today its too early to tell :-)

Tuesday, February 3, 2015

Day 1

Day 1 on 75mg of Wellbutrin as prescribed by my doc. Took it a little later than anticipated this morning, but it was done in a blink. Been feeling a light buzz all day. Flipped through some magazines, and nibbled a bit here and there. Just got up from a delightful nap with my bed complete with electric blanket. No jitters or restlessness as I was warned. So far, I'm feeling 'safe'. Safe from myself? Safe from my mind? Safe is all I can say. Should take a couple weeks to fully kick in. Hoping for no or minimal side effects (please no nausea!)

Monday, February 2, 2015

Evaluate

I'm taking a moment to evaluate myself. I am currently 25lbs over my ideal weight for my height. While I have the anxiety somewhat under control, the depression is not. I'm home all day in minor but significant chronic pain due to carpal tunnel syndrome. I'm not sure what to do for work not that I am very limited in my time that I'm able to spend on the computer. I could go back to school, but I'm not sure what I would want to study and for what career. The little black dog sits restless at my feet. I have recently cut 95% of the dairy from my diet and bread as well. I feel better. Tonight will be my last glass of wine for the near future as my doctor's visit today resulted in a Rx for Wellbutrin (and samples of blood drawn). I take alcohol and medication very seriously. Hopefully it's all for the best.